My name is Katniss Everdeen.
Why am I not dead?
I should be dead.
Katniss Everdeen, girl on fire, has survived, even though her home has been destroyed. Gale has escaped. Katniss’s family is safe. Peeta has been captured by the Capitol. District 13 really does exist. There are rebels. There are new leaders. A revolution is unfolding.
It is by design that Katniss was rescued from the arena in the cruel and haunting Quarter Quell, and it is by design that she has long been part of the revolution without knowing it. District 13 has come out of the shadows and is plotting to overthrow the Capitol. Everyone, it seems, has had a hand in the carefully laid plans–except Katniss.
The success of the rebellion hinges on Katniss’s willingness to be a pawn, to accept responsibility for countless lives, and to change the course of the future of Panem. To do this, she must put aside her feelings of anger and distrust. She must become the rebels’ Mockingjay–no matter what the personal cost.
The last book has never been my favorite. I find the beginning slow and melancholy, and see a regression in Katniss from the growth in CF. The second half where the action and resolution takes place is then drug back under a black cloud. However, every time I read this, I get it a little more. I understand Collins overall message a bit better, and I don’t close it feeling that sense of unfinished business that I have in the past.
Overall, it’s the story of a broken girl trying desperately to hold on to what she has left. To achieve freedom for the people of her country, while still maintaining a sense of morality. And lastly, to try and find a way to cope with all she’s experienced and seen, without being pulled into the pit of oblivion she and her peers can so easily succumb. Not a pretty story any way you cut it.
Honestly, I was never as affected by Prim’s death as a lot of the fandom, I was never really attached to her as a character. Maybe it’s because I’m an only child, I just can’t understand that sibling bond. So at the end, where Katniss finally breaks, I’m a little disappointed. As I said though, every time I re-read it, I understand it a bit better. And I mean she kind of deserves to break right? I mean she’s been holding it together, shoving away her emotions this whole time, and now she’s finally unleashing the flood of feelings and really beginning to understand her personal emotional climate.
That understanding of herself is what finally allows her to forgive her mother, to acknowledge that she’s in love with Peeta, that Gale would never have been the right person for her; and ultimately that there are things/people to continue to live for. So even though it’s not a rainbows and butterflies ending, it leaves me with much more closer the more I read it and am able to get a deeper understanding of Katniss.